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A Conversation

with Your Ex, Arthritis

by Sara Pisak

Hey!

Arthritis

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Read 9:27pm

Come on, answer.

 

I know you miss me.

Read 12:42am

No, I don't miss you. It has been a great 8 months without you. Stop texting me out of the blue!

Read 12:43am

I just wanted to let you know that I miss you and will be coming back for awhile. It's lonely in remission.

Read 12:45am

Really? We have been through this 100 times. Having a "say" is not how this works. 

Read 12:52am

Yep.

Read 12:56am

Damn! I forgot I can do all that. 

You don't want me back, why?

Look at all the things I can offer.

Read 1:02am

That's the plan! You're the one who broke up with me. Our relationship is not over!

Read 1:10am

I'm doing this for us so we can be together. If that makes me selfish then so be it. 

Read 1:13am

Don't I have a say in this? It's not lonely for me. I am enjoying myself in remission. I can do whatever I want without pain and worry, such as walks in the park, swimming, and yoga.

Read 12:46am

Are you kidding me? I'm supposed to be okay with you coming and going, wrecking havoc, and making me sick whenever you please?

Read 12:55am

All you have to say for yourself is, “Yep?" You give me swollen joints, fevers, make me barely able to move, repress my immune system, and make me sick with worry and all you can say is, "Yep."

Read 12:58am

You make me sick!

Read 1:07am
Read 1:12am

I know your are lonely and your anxiety makes it hard to stop attacking my immune system. You are being selfish. Honestly, there is nothing wrong. There is no threat. Tell me what I can do to make you panic less?

You only care about feeding your own symptoms. 

Delivered

Where'd you go? Are you in remission? Not talking to me?

Delivered

Fine. Don't answer. It's the same redundant conversation we always have. 

Delivered

You know what? It's not fine. You are not helping me or yourself by being controlling, possessive, and attacking things that aren't there.

Delivered

I've been patient for 22 years. Treating you is completely ineffective. Medication and homeopathic therapies are do nothing. It is so frustrating with you calling the shots. You don't respond to anything!

Read 4:30am

See you soon,

Love!

Read 4:32am

Previously published in: Five:2:One #thesideshow